Three Women
Who I want to be; who I should be; who I am!
Day 1 - I woke a couple of nights ago - (7th Sept), and wrote in my thinking book - '3 women' - then went back to sleep. This happens quite often -subconscious thought patterns zipping through my relaxed brain. However, in this case, these words meant nothing to me the following morning. Who were these women and what did they mean to me? Were they related to 3 Guys (a popular supermarket in the last millennium) - nope!
As we all know, trying to remember dreams is all but impossible. So I internalised these women and approached the problem from a personal perspective. Am I who I want to be? Who I should be? or "am I who I am and who I am needs no excuses!"? (Gloria Gaynor).
1. Who I want to be. Is that a personal goal; a general desire to be my own person; a woman of my own making?
2. Who I should be. Do I have a choice; am I the mistress of my own fate?
3. Who I am. Do I care; does anyone else care?
From a human point of view, our goals, aspirations, and desires are our own to chase, whether we catch them or not is another matter. How can we possibly be the master of our own fate? Maybe, by looking outside our own sphere we might just catch a glimpse of a higher presence, a greater power than our own.
This morning - day 3. I partially surfaced from sleep to recognise these women. "Yes", I knew them! Relaxed in the knowledge I had it sorted, I didn't write the names in my thinking book. When I finally woke completely, they had again become a figment of my imagination. Bother!
Do you, my readers, experience this sort of thing? Are they dreams or just a relaxed brain trying to download data? God spoke to people through dreams in both the old and new testaments. I think the purpose was to teach, warn and prophesy regarding coming events. I don't see my issue through the same lens. Mine is more a tired mind and a lack of sleep. But, having said that, I still see it as a nudge from God. If I'm not paying attention to the Spirit of God during the day, I deserve a night time prod in the cerebrum!
I usually post a blog every Thursday at 2pm. So I'm going to try one more night to unlock the names of these 3 women. Meanwhile, I have very little time to write a replacement. Maybe that's a good thing - I'll get back to you!
Day 4 - Woke up today with the Mama Mia women singing, dancing and having fun! So what's the lesson here, do they need another grey haired backup singer? I'm all in!
Jo Warner